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About a week ago, I was taking out the trash, when I hurt myself.  Hernia.  Didn't realize it at the time, but sure enough, it was a hernia, from moving the yard waste bins, which the gardeners had over filled.  I was in pain for a week, mistook it for a pulled groin muscle, but it was a hernia.  My lower G.I. had broken though the muscle tissue and fell into a lower tract.  Had to go to the emergency room on Saturday after seeing my physician, he freaked out and said "Get to the emergency room!", so I went to the local Methodist hospital.  They did an ultrasound, found the hernia, so I was bundled onto a stretcher and taken via ambulance to the bigger hospital 3 towns over, and they laid me up for the weekend.  The specialist popped my hernia back in (Ouch!) but said I have an internal infection.  I have to be on antibiotics for a week or so, and go to the specialist to get a consultation prior to being patched up with metal mesh to "patch the hull" and prevent the hernia from falling out again.  I will have to go in for surgery, but first talk to that specialist at his clinic, and then schedule a surgery date.  Damn it.

My parents are such stupid assholes.  I swear to God...

Okay, so my dad has been pushing me and pushing me for the past 2 weeks to be a process server.  I'm working on it, and I'm nearly done...but then get this; he and my stupid bitch of a mom demand that I go back to work for the United States Postal Service....back to the SAME FUCKING JOB that I was wrongfully terminated from back in 2006.  Those same assholes at the USPS who made it nearly impossible for me to get a job with them...all because mom and dad "want me to have money for the holidays", then they claim they "want me to have a career with the post office", and they are pressuring me to go down there and demand to be made the Postmaster General! 

I remember in 2006, when they DIDN'T want me to work for the post office, and when I got a trumped up traffic ticket from the cops on my delivery route, and was fired by those retards at the USPS, my father, A GODDAM LAWYER, could have helped me beat that traffic ticket, and get my job back (possibly via a lawsuit), yet he made me plead "no contest" and take driving school as a plea bargain.  I had PROOF that I didn't deserve that ticket!   He lied to me, and he sabotaged me!  He and mom have held me back for YEARS, they put me under a ton of pressure to be a mega success, yet they sabotage me when I'm about to get ahead!

Now suddenly, dad gets a postcard announcement in the mail about the post office hiring for the holidays, so he and mom are on my case to get a job with the post office, first they say "Well we KNOW it's not gonna be secure for you as a job/career, nothing is", yet then they say "Well, you need a job with benefits and retirement!".  Hypocritical much?  And I said "What about this process server business thing you pushed me into wasting the money and effort on for the past week and a half?"  They said "Oh, well you won't make any money or benefits with that!".  I won't be rehired, I KNOW so because they keep records.  Who cares if it was 8 years ago?  Those bureaucrats remember things form 80 years ago!  I'm blacklisted!  There is no fucking point in applying there ever again for me.

They trivialize how I feel about this, and they constantly berate me and tell me that I'm stupid, lazy, and being too sensitive.  They can fuck off!  I don't need to wake up to nagging and insults, as well as the trivialization of my opinions.  I hate them!  I want them to die!

First my stupid parents say it's not about the benefits and stability, "They just want me to have a holiday job".  THEN they say it's about a career and retirement/health benefits.  They are so stupid!  I'm going to kill them!  They've gone too far!  I do the work of 1,000,000,000 people in this stupid house, I pay for my own groceries, I chip in on the utilities, I even pay rent in this stupid house, and they still get on my nerves!  I should get that gun out of my desk drawer, and shoot the both of them full of lead, I've had just about enough of those two stupid assholes!  I should put rat poison in their coffee!  I don't care about the fucking consequences anymore!  I have HAD IT with them!!!

I wish that they were dead.  I hate my stupid piece of shit parents!

I'm not writing this to draw or attract pity/sympathy, or to feel sorry for myself, I'm just thinking out loud. 

I haven't been on a date since last summer, and that girl was a disaster, she came to our date high as a kite.  So disappointing.  Before that, it was summer of 2012, with a nice girl from Hancock Park, CA.  But her family didn't approve of me, and she wasn't too interested in me either, at least I think she wasn't...she did prank call me for the rest of the year, calling and hanging up, but I guess she was just bored.  She was a bit strange, too, as were her family.  I haven't heard from her in a while. 

Winter of 2011, I dated one sweet Persian girl, but she went and gave her ex boyfriend another chance...didn't realize that I was so horrible that I'd sent her back to her ex, though he called her and begged her for another chance and she gave it to him, but I dunno.  Then there was winter of 2011 again, and this [tacky] woman rejected me even though I was nothing but nice to her.  Hmph.

Okay, so I'm not rich, and I'm only 5' 10".  But I have other good fucking qualities, and I am so sick of these L.A. women all wanting a tall, rich, handsome, Bruce Wayne type!  Guys like that barely exist, and if they did, they could have ANY woman they want, and they themselves would have REALLY narrow tastes.  I'm not asking to date a supermodel, or someone like that, and I'm flexible with my tastes...I can't understand what the hell I'm doing wrong though.  I always shower, shave, brush my teeth, and dress decently for a date.  For God's sake, I even wear cologne!  I always pay for the dinner, I let the women do the talking, and I listen to them, I'm genuinely polite and ask them the questions...

I love artistically talented types, smarts are important, a good personality.  I'll be honest, I like someone who looks pretty.  She doesn't have to be drop dead gorgeous, but at least pleasant to look at.  I also would like someone who is kind, honest, and shares the same interests I do, and also has a similar sense of humor to mine.  I hope to find someone like that.  Age difference is no problem, as long as it's less than 10 years older or younger.

There is a member of deviant art that I currently have a crush on (recently gave her a llama badge), she doesn't even know that I exist yet.  But I hope she realizes it soon, and even if she doesn't feel the same way about me, then at least I still hope we can become friends.  She is highly talented, and I always comment on her works, and I follow her on this site (not in a creepy stalker way).  I just found her here, and I try to find an opportunity to talk to her.  She's pretty busy though, but I hope she finds my notes and responds in a kind way, not a mean and snarky way, and I hope that she doesn't block or report me. *Update* She did recently reply to a note of mine, simply said "Thanks", but it's a start.  She seems like such a nice person, I hope that we can get to know each other more personally.

I dated a great woman in 2007, she was the type I love, artistic, talented, beautiful, smart, honest, kind...but she was very ill.  She died a month after I met her.  I miss her, and think about her a lot.  I'm glad that I met her, I wouldn't miss that for the world.

In 2008 I did have a girlfriend, but then after 9 months, she started cheating on me with another guy who shoots at squirrels with a pellet rifle for fun.  She broke up with me via text, after standing me up and lying to me.  Then, that guy she was cheating on me with broke up with HER 3 weeks after she dumped me.  Poetic justice!  2009, no luck.  2010, worse luck.  I've also been stood up, and left waiting, and then some of these women drove past me with their actual date and honk the horn at me, laughing as they sped by.  Reeeeeal classy, I say sarcastically.

Makes me wonder what I did to deserve this...maybe I was a bad person in a past life, and I'm being punished for it in this life.

I hope that I find that special someone soon, I won't give up.

Well, I've been working my hardest to start a career.  I'm getting closer and closer to my goal, and if I can get this second chance I've been recently given, it will mean that much more to me.  I can move out, get my own house, do whatever the hell I want to do.  I don't need to go on fancy vacations, or to drive a BMW, I just want a nice house in a good neighborhood, with a well stocked fridge and pantry to come home to.  That to me means all the difference in the world.  I won't say WHAT this specific job is for safety/privacy reasons, but it's steady, stable, safe, and respectable.  The pay isn't much, but I know how to make it last.  The benefits are excellent!  My stupid sister screwed me over by giving me bad references, but fortunately this department has been under heavy public scrutiny, and wants to clean up their image through fair opportunity employment, so that's why I got that second chance.  I hope it works, I need to move on in my life.

ycorpblog.com/2013/03/01/35535…

This is about Yahoo being destroyed by its new evil fat pig of a CEO, Marissa Mayer.  She claims that Yahoo has to "Keep up with the giants like Facebook, Apple, and Google".  Really?  Last I heard:

-Facebook stock took a huge dump last year, especially at the IPO.  Also, it's losing more people than it's gaining.

-Apple stock is plunging, and the iPad is losing its luster.

-Google is fighting against Bing right now, so Yahoo is not in its sights.

Does this woman not read the news!?

She is trying to make Yahoo another Google wannabe.  Not cool.  She wants to make it less about the media and other things that made Yahoo fun, and more about "The technology".  Her "streamlining" and cutting all of those features in Yahoo is costing lots of people their jobs.  Also, she is forcing other Yahoo employees to relocate so they can physically commute to work, she won't let them telecommute.

Marissa Mayer is scum, and will be the death of Yahoo yet.

I am soooo angry!  

The way to go is letting employees telecommute, and paying them by the progress/productivity, not clocking into the office and paying by the hour!  Marissa sounds like a megalomania-cal control freak.  She's Prof.  Dolores Umbridge taking over Hogwarts, making it blank, bland, and totalitarian.

What made Yahoo fun was all that stuff she wants to remove, and she's gonna fire so many people.  The employees now hate it there, and they are leaving to work for other web companies.